I know. My postings haven’t quite been regular this week. It’s been quite the week. There has been some job instability along with some announcing of sad news from some good friends of ours, meals tossed in the compost bin due to inedibility and various other turmoil that is not common to our normal weeks. (Don’t worry about me, my job is fine, for now.) This post is more for the sake of my journaling out what I’m thinking and maybe engaging y’all in conversation than than my typical crafty, foodie or book related chatting. Hope y’all don’t mind. 🙂
Mostly, Jason and I have also been struggling with where we feel called to direct our lives. We both feel that we’re called to do something more to bless people but we’re waiting for something. We don’t want to be stagnant and come to the ends of our lives and look back to see we only sought after things to make us comfortable and happy, while neglecting those who were in need. I don’t believe that is how we’re called to live. Selfishness is not something I want to pursue although it’s difficult in the culture of America to escape the individualism and entitlement. We’ve always been told to seek the American dream, and personally, I believe there are faults in the American dream (although in some perspectives, Jason and I have recognized the American dream – we own a house, have jobs, are starting a family . . . we’re wealthy and comfortable in comparision to the rest of the world). We are the most medicated, depressed, lonely, overweight country in the world. That may subtly say something about the results of seeking the American dream.
And I guess that’s part of what I have been struggling with most lately – what my faith says does not seem to line up with what I am told to seek in America. I think joy (not happiness) and contentment are difficult to find in a culture idolizing things/money and I am struggling. I want my life to mean more, I want to serve more, but not because of me, because of how I believe and how I love.
But how do you take action in a culture of inaction and discussion? How do you take action in a culture that thinks that living to love and help others (especially the marginalized) is for the radicals and not the normal person?